desperate for change

Last night I went to see the Snowball Classic with my non-dancing friend. I wasn’t planning on going but we were just talking one night and I casually mentioned it to her as something that is pretty big in the  Vancouver dancing community. The next day, she called me up to tell me that she wants to get some tickets for us to go together.

For my dancing friends that read this blog, you may (or may not) have noticed my reduction in my dancing activity. I mean – there was a time when I was doing ballroom and/or going to salsa classes multiple times a week. Honestly, I was in a bit of a burnout of going so hard, nowhere fast.

In a way, it was starting to have a similar feel to my startup-attempts a while ago: a lot of grind and energy spent without much results or much to show for. I was starting to feel like a robot shuffling from class to class and not having as much fun as when I started.

I still enjoy the friendships that I have made throughout my dancing activities. And most absolutely, I will go out for the occasional social outing. I mean, aren’t you dying to go dancing at Robson Square this summer? However, I won’t be pushing myself just for the sake of pushing myself. I am just going to keep it fun for myself.

I mean, there are so many other things to try and do right?

Check out this quote from my astrological “personal guide to the future”:

Because it isn’t easy for Virgos to relax, you need plenty of hobbies and pastimes to steer you in that direction.

This commentary is totally spot-on for me. I think that this is even more so these days in the working world than even when I was still in school. Or perhaps it seems that way because I still need to “gear-down” from working as hard as I did when I was in school.

I think that I have trouble managing my downtime. In fact, I don’t let myself have any downtime: any spare time goes to reading, studying, research, designing, planning, and scheming. The fact is, years of doing this has caught up to me, so much that lifting a pencil is too much mental exercise. My head hurts from so much thinking.

There was a period of a few weeks earlier this year when I was actually scheduling in some “fun” hours: it was when I was practicing for the Gala Ball. Yes, if I don’t schedule anything, I automatically default to my “usual.”

Okay now – just gotta find a few more fun things to put into the after-five schedule.